Lost my way chasing a dream
still no where i come close to it
days and nights passed by
it feels m missing few things
I find myself crawling
i find myself lost
in between the time
with no one to depend on
I look behind
i have my dad
saying am right here holding you
waiting for you
I feel tantalized and I feel drunk. I feel that i'm off my feet..like floating..floating.... above above till i finally meet you. Just below the last layer of clouds..where the sun is not so hot.. nor it is so cold..and all i know is i love you. Above, beneath, nothing else matters, in the moment iSo am told every girl is taken cause there are boys who loves girls more than computer. So am I still dammed to a life of misery and hate? They say I'll regret one day, they say I can't have a girl coz I can't recognize the onces that love me. They say am a robot without a sense. All I can say is HeNo time even to tell a story!! Shit like life! Hate it!! I just hate myself!!
>_< You give me belief to surrender myself
to the evergreen dark selfish world.
Everyday begins with begging for something,
something that is never fulfilled
You give me power to hate myself
for being so lost and lonely.
I know am just ugly,
but did you just have to go away?
You give me freeÂAdheyro raat ko samaye khatma paltiraheko chu jhayal bata bahira herdai sansar nihaldai. Ek ta raat ko samaye cha tesmathi nepal lo loadsheedin chaarai tira adheyro nai deykhincha kunai kunai gharma bati deykhincha sayad aadhunik tuki bati hola matitel ley navae battry ya solar ley chalney haru heI don't know if i belong anywhere. Do i want to belong to you my dear moon... no clue. if i even belong to you. you are far. and you don't response to me. but i feel your brightness. i feel your coolness where i can find warmth. my heart belongs to you my soul belongs to you although i can't be niceI was doing my computer project stuff and suddenly my eyes went on the time and dates and I noticed its already 12:30 am and the date was 2/5/2014 i.e 5th feb. Seeing 5th feb, i started feel a different feeling and out of sudden I remembered 5th feb is the day, the day you were born. I was happy it'I am in a Trance. I am having my transition. Trying to slow down my heart beat. I am making hard oxygen choices. I am holding strong on my decisons. Well, sometime, time just needs time.For few months I was kind of dead, things breaking down, paths getting blocked, nothing was working. I was just crawling hopelessly hoping I'll see a light. After months of crawling, I think I see a glimpse of light. Its far away and I still need to crawl a long way but having hope just gives you th